Right now…

That’s a really dumb title, but I can’t think of anything for the time being. Right now, I’ve just finished one history lecture, and am waiting for the lecturer to put the notes up on the internet so I can download them and print them. The internet is a blessing and a curse. It’s a blessing because it saves me from having to learn short hand for taking notes, and I don’t have to worry if I miss things, but it’s also a curse because now that I’m so dependent on it, I can’t live without it. Without the world wide web, I would be lost, with no information, no social life etc.

Normality is expensive…

Today is the first time I’ve acted like a normal adolescent for ages. No, it’s true. I went shopping alone right after class because I had four hours until the next one. Took the bus to the mall, and went straight to Borders to get my long-desired moleskine. However, the style I wanted (normal lined notebook) wasn’t there, so I had to satisfy myself by getting the pack of three cahiers, which only have cardboard covers, and a CD of sounds in nature to make up for it. Not too much of a disaster, I suppose. It would’ve been worse if there were no moleskines at all. Then I bought headphones because my old ones were definitely dying on me, and chocolate truffles for Mother’s Day. I realize that it’s the first time I’ve ever gotten anything for either of my parents. Not sure what to get for Dad. He’s a bit picky and doesn’t like sweets. I’m not prepared to cook a seafood dinner either, for two reasons. a) I can’t cook b) fish smells make me sick. So overall, I spent $60 by being normal for two hours. Maybe I should stick to books and imagination for financial convenience.

So basically today I have done nothing creative except write one A4 page of fanfiction, and my three ‘morning pages’. And now blogging, of course, but I’m not being creative. I’m just rehashing my day so far.

The fanfic’s going all right, I suppose, which is a blessing. It’s a bit weird actually, because I’m making a good character (whom I can’t possibly see as evil) turn to the dark side. Actually, his mind has been overthrown by his darker self, and his good self can’t regain control. I’ve written a passage about how his good self feels. Basically, he thinks that going to Hell would be better because the last thing he wants to do is betray his friends. Hopefully my readers will enjoy this sort of angst.

I got an idea in the morning while I was walking to the bus stop. Maybe I’ll post fanfic of what would happen if I found myself in Middle Earth. There will be no euphemisms at all. I’ll try to be as realistic as possible. Anyway, that’s just a thought. Maybe I’ll start the story later. It would be something to do between classes when I have absolutely no desire to study.